The Truth Is…
I am scared of everything. I am scared of what i saw, i am scared of what i did, of who i am now and in the past and most of all, i am afraid of never being able to open up to people, the way i used to. I am scared of loving someone and then losing and seeing him drifting away from my life again. Some people, they wont understand. They thought, when you lose someone you love more than you even love yourself, you can just open the door for someone else. That is not true. Indeed i am scared of ending up alone but ending up with the wrong person is worse. So i put away those feelings, the ones i shouldnt have when the truth is that i am just too scared of loving someone when love will fade with time.
Expect the unxpected
- H: Tau tau je ade orang datang meminang eh :P
- Me: Sape lah yang nak.
- H: Mane tau. I would if I'm prepared.
- Me: *gasp* Oh, you mean you would propose to your gf?
- H: I think she will be prepared too by the time I'm prepared. But if you, I have to worry if I'm prepared.